I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but my Grandpa is in the hospital. ICU, precisely. He had an aneurysm rupture in his brain about two weeks ago. We didn't think he was going to make it. He did though, but he's still in the hospital, and probably will be for awhile. I've been unable to get to see him, first because I had to work, then because I had a head/chest cold (and being in ICU, I wasn't about to go in there all contagious and shit), and then my car broke down. I have tomorrow off from work, but although my car is running just fine now, I'm still afraid to drive it there (about an hour away) in the cold. It's supposed to be icy tomorrow too. Mom can't go because she's at work. My Grandma and Uncle have been going every other day, and they went today.
I work X-mas Eve and X-mas Day.. and the day after X-mas. This means after tomorrow, I only have the weekend off.
My Grandma just lost her Mom back in October, and now this.
Today, when Grandma and my Uncle were there, Grandpa kept telling them that "Kandie was here this morning" and "is Kandie still here?" Now granted, they say he's been really confused, and doesn't always know everyone -- but he thinks I've been there. He's eventually going to realize I haven't been.. And how is that going to make him feel?
I feel absolutely fucking terrible.